Monday, October 17, 2011

Fresh Start

A month from today, I will be joining the Israeli Defense Forces.  Slowly, slowly, it has begun to sink in that despite the fact that this is my dream, I am about to give up my life and my free will for the next two years.  When I am released from the army, I will be 25.  That's really old.  And though people tell me that it isn't that old, and I have my whole life ahead of me, I can't  help but panic a little bit.  My friends in America will be in law school, or med school, or will be climbing the ladder in the work world.  I'm going to have to start from scratch and decide what I want to do with my life.  I'm trying to think like an Israeli--one step at a time.   But as hard as I try, I can't get past the idea that the next two years are going to be long and challenging and probably the hardest thing I've done so far.  

This past week has been a particularly difficult one for me and it was a slap in the face.  My garin gave me the support I needed, but I still felt isolated and alone.  I've only been here for 2 months!  We're all still learning a lot about each other, and figuring out what each person needs.  All I wanted was to be at home in America with my friends.  Though I reached out to my friends in America and some of them responded with texts and calls and emails, some of my closest friends have barely responded.  It was because of this that I realized that I need to jump into this thing head first.  Its not that I want to forget my American friends, because I love them dearly (really...I love you guys to the moon and back) but they aren't going to be here.  They won't be able to hug me, or go out with me for my birthday.  They can't sit with me when I'm sad, and they can't just pick up the phone to call like it's nothing.  I live in Israel, now.  I need to focus on building my life here, and make all of my decisions based on what want as opposed to my relationships with family, friends, and loved ones. (Even though those are obviously important, too).

This is a fresh start.  For me, this week helped me realize a lot of things, though it will take time to get used to them.   Garin Regba is my family, Moshav Regba is my home, and the army is my life for the next two years.  I can't wait to begin my two year service in the army, and there are no other people I would rather go through it with than with my Garin. 

-Arielle Adler

Saturday, October 1, 2011

Commenting and Contributing

Dear Reader,

As previously stated, this blog's writers will be posting a diverse smattering of material. At the same time that we contribute our piece we would like you, our beloved reader, to do the same. Comment! We want to see what you have to say about what we write, preferably things more engaging than the usual "Great post!" or "Interesting" or any other basic (generally parental) expression of agreement. Challenge us--add your thoughts. Not only does that let us know someone's really reading but also helps us sharpen our opinions and develop new ones.

Thanks, and שנה טובה

שבתות וחגים

תמיד אומרים שזה הכי קשה.
אז האמת ששבת בדרך כלל עוברת בטוב... אם במושב אז עם הגרעין, או עם אילנית ונדב המשפחה
המאמצת המדהימה שלי...
ואם לא במושב אז אצל משפחה, או אצל חברים.. ואז כיף כי יש הרגשה של שוני, של נתק מהגרעין,
שכמה שאני אוהבת אותו, אין ספק שקשה להיות כל הזמן עם אותם 20 אנשים.
אבל חגים. חגים זה הדבר הכי משפחתי בעולם. ונכון, כשחייתי בארה"ב היה קשה בלי המשפחה
המורחבת, וכל הזמן חיכיתי לרגע שאני אהיה פה, בארץ, אבל יותר מזה, במקום שבו אני מרגישה
שייכת וקשורה. במקום שהוא הבית שלי. ואם זאת, קשה. הרבה יותר קשה ממש שחשבתי שיהיה.
דודים זה דודים. וסבתא.. הן סבתא. וסבא..... עם סבא חשוב לי להיות הכי הרבה שאני יכולה. באמת,
המון המון. חשוב לי לשמוע.. לשמוע את הסיפור שלו מפיו, ולא רק מסיפורים של אמא ושל אבא.
חשוב לי שהוא יספר לי מה קרה לו בדבר הנורא הזה שנקרא שואה, כי יום אחד הוא כבר לא יהיה פה
בשביל לספר, ואני רוצה לדעת הכל. כל דבר הכי קטן.
אבל אמא. ואבא. ודקל. ויעד. וזיו. הם המפשחה שלי. והדבר המדהים הזה, החג בבית, זה הדבר שאני
הכי רוצה עכשיו בעולם.
עם האוכל של אמא, שמכינה כל שנה את אותו הדבר, כי זה האוכל של החג המזדמן. ודקל שיושב
מולי, ליד יועד, ועושה צחוק מהבכרות. ואני מתעצבנת ואומרת לו, דקל אתה כבר לא תינוק, תהוו
דוגמא. כי אני רוצה להאמין שהוא יכול להיות בדיוק כמוני, אפילו שהוא לגמרי לא. ויועד צוחק
מהשטויות של דקל, כי הוא בן 12 והוא עוד לא מבין שזה לא במקום. וזיו אוכל שניצל עם אורז, אבל
בעצם הכלב אוכל יותר ממנו, כי האורז מתפזר על הרצפה.
ואז אמא מביאה מרק, ואבא אומר שעכשיו הוא יזרוק את המרק כמו שהוא זורק את החלה של
הקידוש, שככה סבא עובד ז"ל היה עושה, ואני עושה לאבא פרצוף כי נמאס לי שכבר 20 שנה אני
שומעת את אותן הבדיחות  הלא מצחיקות. ואמא תוציא את הסלט ואני אזכר שהבטחתי שאני אכין
אותו, אבל אמא אוהבת שהכל מוכן מוקדם ואני אוהבת לעשות הכל בדקה ה101, אז היא הכינה,
והיא לא אמרה לי כלום כי הייתי בחדר שלי והיא לא רצתה להפריע.
ואז אני שואלת את עצמי אם אני מצטערת. והתשובה הכי אמיתית היא שאפילו לא קצת. פה אני
רוצה להיות. ממש פה, יושבת ברכבת ומחכה שסוף סוף היא תסע לעתלית. כי מה? לא ידעתי שיהיה
קשה? בוודאי שידעתי. ולא ידעתי שאני אתגעגע הבייתה? ידעתי גם את זה.
אז זהו.
בכל מקרה,
שתהיה לכולנו שנה טובה ומתוקה. שנה מלאה בחויות והתחלות חדשות. שנה של בריאות ושל חיים
ושל שמחה. שנה של טירונות קלה ותפקיד מספק ומהנה. שנה של אהבה ושל שלום. שנה של חברים
חדשים וישנים. של צחוק ושל נחת.
שבשנה הבאה אני אשב ממש פה, ברכבת, ואזכר בה ואדע שזה, עשיתי את הדבר הנכון.
והכי חשוב, שנה של החזרה הבייתה של גלעד. ושבשנה הבאה לא יהיה אף אחד בחושך, לבד,
באיזה חור.

Wednesday, September 28, 2011

First Post as a Citizen, Ben Gurion style

I wanted to devote my first post to a letter from David Ben Gurion dated on 5.5.53/כ' אייר תשי"ג sent to his Minister of Finance (who, in Israel's 4th government, happened to be Levi Eshkol). The letter -- or more appropriately, the memo, was shown to me in an excellent class I took in my final semester at the Seminary called Revival of the Hebrew Language, and for multiple reasons I simply love it.

First, allow me to quote the letter in entirety, and I'll follow with comments.

לשר האוצר,

חתמתי היום על "הצהרת העובר(ה) לצורך קביעת נכויי המס".

בהצהרה, כסעיף 4 נאמר שם בעלי/אשתי. לדעתי יש להגיד: אישי/אשתי.

במלה בעל יש משמעות של אדנות ועבודה זרה, שאינה הולמת כבוד האשה, השווה לגמרי בזכויותיה לאיש.

תעשו כדברי הושע הנביא: "והיה ביום ההוא - תקראי אישי ולא תקראי לי עוד בעלי (הושע ב' 15).


בכבוד רב,ד. בן-גוריון


I just Google Translated that and it completely botches the meaning, so follow my explanation instead. Basically, Prime Minister Ben Gurion is writing to his MOF to scold him. On a tax form that DBG had been filling out earlier that day, he had the option of circling either "בעלי" or "אשתי." Traditionally (and still very much the status quo today), a wife calls her husband her בעל, which can be translated as husband, master, lord, owner, and Baal (a Biblical era idol) among other things. אשתי, on the other hand, is simply translated as "wife." So the husband circles "wife" and the wife circles "husband/master/Baal." DBG immediately calls this out and says the options instead should be "אשתי" or "אישי" which immediately give a more egalitarian parallel. After all, he explains, "בעל" has the meanings of mastery and idolatry [whereas "אישי" simply means husband]. And here comes the kicker. Ben Gurion finishes his memo to Eshkol by telling Eshkol to act in the ways of Hosea, and ending with a quote from the ever humanistic and social justice oriented prophet. 'And it will be in this day, you shall call me husband/man ["אישי"] and you shall not call me master ["בעלי"] anymore' [Hosea 2:15, my translation].

So here's why I love this memo so much. It is 1953 and David Ben Gurion is nearly 5 years post Independence. He is desperately trying to absorb over a million immigrants (primarily Jews of the Middle East and N.Africa who fled/were kicked out of their homes in the aftermath of the creation of Israel, but also Holocaust survivors from Europe), many of whom spend several years in transitional tent camps in the fledgling state. His budget is by all means tiny. He is trying to feed a country (food stamps were the norm; everything was rationed) that is growing rapidly. He is trying to keep the country defended in a region that actively seeks its destruction -- dealing both with bellicose cries in the media from neighboring countries as well as actual terrorist attacks (sound familiar?). And on and on. The point is DBG was literally building a nation. And yet, he finds time to do his taxes, and while doing them, take note that something is remiss in his vision of a progressive social democracy in the Jewish homeland. In one minute's worth of a memo, Ben Gurion is seeking to change something fundamental about how his government functions, and how it portrays itself. And he does so by quoting the Jewish canon.

David Ben Gurion, the self proclaimed Atheist, could quote the Jewish Bible at will, as well as much of the Talmud. Judaism, though not necessarily important to him in a religious sense, permeated all aspects of Ben Gurion's life. On the international and national scales, Ben Gurion was able to do things that we should all dream to be able to do. And incredibly, Judaism was infused in the macro and micro levels of all of his actions. I think that the conversation surrounding DBG's personal educational upbringing/history and how that history affected his personal and national Zionisms which thus affected his choices on how education in the new country should look like (he was a staunch believer in the separation of church and state) deserve an entire thesis worth of discussion (I'll also try to tackle it one of these days in a post). However, what I can conclusively say right now is that it is letters like these that give me confidence in what I am doing here in Israel today. 

I am a proud Zionist with tons of questions and doubts about Judaism. I naively thought that after four years at JTS (and I guess at Columbia, too) I would be comfortable with my Judaism and ready to move to Israel as a man comfortable with his faith and level of observance. Instead I came out of there with more doubts about religion than ever. But, at the same time, my doubts have never once deterred my involvement with Judaism, my constant intermingling with Jewish history, literature, philosophy, and language. What is beautiful about Judaism is that even if we have our crises of faith and questions that remain unanswered, we can still look to it as a wellspring of ideals and values to make the world a better place.

Ben Gurion was here to make Israel a viable place for Jews to live, for whenever they wanted to and for whatever reason. His vision was social, democratic, and Jewish. He is an obvious inspiration in my life, and so in my own small ways, I too am here to make this country a better place. 


With love,

Jonah/יונה


Sunday, September 25, 2011

The Seed is planted

Hello to everyone and ברוכים הבאים to the Garin Regba blog page. In the coming weeks and months (maybe years) Tzabarnikim (members of the Garin Tzabar) from Moshav Regba (מושב רגבה) will use this site to write about their life-changing experience. Here, both in English and inHebrew, we will discuss our thoughts, hopes, ideas, daily routines, expectations and emotions. This site will be a forum for discussing the decision to come to Israel and enlist in the Israeli army--from their individual challenges as olim chadashim (literally "new risers," a term used to refer to new immigrants to the Land of Israel) to adjusting to life on the moshav and eventually the army. Some of us may write about how much we miss our pre-aliyah lives, some may vent political frustrations; others may write about army stories or life lessons. What is most important is that this is a collective effort that will manifest itself through the works of individual members. Naturally, different writers will publish different pieces lending to diversity in style and in content, as is our hope. May this blog not only be an outlet for us, here in Regba, but also a bridge to our friends and family, and even those who may encounter our blog by chance. 


While we are only a group of twenty-one people we have high expectations for ourselves as we have started new lives and have become contributing members of Israeli society. With that in mind we sign off with a quote from anthropologist Margeret Mead: "Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world. Indeed, it is the only thing that ever has."